Years
have passed and she thinks she’s still stuck! She’s used to pretend that
everything is alright. She has even convinced herself then, but hell, she was
wrong!
It's
been months since the last time they talked and she realized how much she
loves talking to him. She sees things differently since she met him. She loves how
he smiles at her. She told me how much she loves to hear him laugh. She
daydreams about him off and on, replaying pieces of their conversation; laughing
at corny things that he said or did. Funny, but she catches herself smiling
again at those thoughts.
For
once, she doesn't care! She never did! I kept telling her it won’t do any good,
but I know she cherish every moment she has with him and I know that this is
crazy!
In this
weird twisted way, she hopes he misses her, not because she wants to believe
it's true, but because he'll never find a woman that can put up with him like
she did; he'll never find a woman who will care as much as she did. She has to
let go before she does something stupid (again!). It’s sad, but she knows the
only way out is to get through it.
She's
sick of walking away (again!), but it left her no choice! She has to do it or
else, she'll be very sorry. Things are way different now and she can’t stay
this way forever. She’ll just have to accept the fact that people just come and
go. Some you never think about. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There
are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are the
few you wish you never had to think about again.
One
thing’s for sure. She learned that she should never settle for average. It's
just as close to the bottom as it is to the top. As they said “it's better to
cross a line & suffer the consequences than to just stare at the line for
the rest of your life”.
